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My Story
Nothing prepared me for the challenges that lay ahead, on my journey to motherhood.
As an energy healer and Reiki Master, who had done numerous personal and spiritual development courses, alongside all my training, I thought I had it sorted. The Universe however, had other plans.
As a girl I had dreamt of meeting my soul mate and starting a family, the typical happy ever after tale, that so many of us have.
It took me a long time to meet the man I was to marry, but we wanted different things and differences of opinion on having children was our biggest challenge. We both hoped that the other would change their mind, but it wasn't to be. Despite this, I never gave up hope of being a mother. It was such a strong belief, something I had always wanted and I just couldn't accept that I would never hold my child in my arms or hear them call me Mummy.
As an energy healer and Reiki Master, who had done numerous personal and spiritual development courses, alongside all my training, I thought I had it sorted. The Universe however, had other plans.
As a girl I had dreamt of meetining I had always wanted and I just couldn't accept that I would never hold my child in my arms or hear them call me Mummy.
I have always loved children. I trained as a Montessori nursery school teacher, I was the one who people came to for babysitting and the one who held parties for all of the children of the family, entertaining them all at Halloween and Christmas. I never ever imagined that I would find myself in such a challenging situation, but there I was. In the depths of my despair, I started feeling the presence of a soul around me, It grew stronger as days went by and I felt that it was the soul of my future child. It would sometimes appear as big, blue light, which I found very comforting and reassuring. Occasionally I would sense two of them, but the one who appeared as a blue light was the main one.
I started questioning my sanity until I finally came across the book, 'Spirit Babies, How to communicate with the child you're meant to have', by Walter Makichen It was such a relief to find that I wasn't alone and that souls have life before birth, as well as after death. It then took my a while to find someone who could help me, but I finally did. I saw there was an online fertility summit and one of the speakers worked in the world spirit babies, spirit baby medium and medical intuitive, Kelly Meehan
Following my marriage breakdown, I started working with Kelly, doing every course she offered and eventually went for her fertility and pregnancy mentorship program. I also went along to a talk at a fertility clinic and started my long IVF journey. I had some fertility hypnotherapy sessions and fertility acupuncture alongside very powerful reiki sessions, by renowned Reiki Master Susan Anthony, my own Reiki Master and dear friend. It was her training of self-mastery and healing, that gave my the tools to transform grief and despair into hope and strength. This enabled me to keep fighting on and strengthen my belief that I could do this.
I then sought the advice and help from fertility hypnotherapist Kristin Hayward and fertility nutritionist Melanie Brown, both whom were very helpful. I also tried fertility acupuncture with Mary Hurley, a lovely lady who was also very supportive.
After several failed treatment cycles and a very early miscarriage, I decided to change clinics. I had immune system issues and wanted to change some of the treatment options. I wanted to make sure I had tried everything before giving up and going for adoption. I had already tried various procedures, which hadn't made any difference, but I still wanted to try multiple options that might work.
My first attempt at the new clinic failed, as no changes were made. However, they then did an ERA test, checking whether the embryo transfer timing was correct. They do a biopsy of your uterus, put you through a mock IVF cycle, and do blood tests. I was also then allowed to try intralipids, believed to help with immune issues and went for genetic testing of the embryos to heighten my chances of having healthy embryos and lessen the number of further embryo transfers.
I contacted the renowned fertility expert, Andrew Loosely, who had also been at the online fertility summit with Kelly a few years before. He helped me change my diet, gave me some Chinese herbs, and supported me throughout my journey. It was life-changing, and I was able to lower my thyroid medication, have more energy and give myself a better chance of success. Andrew always goes the extra mile when supporting his clients, which continues throughout pregnancy.
I decided to stop having acupuncture and to keep my last round of IVF a secret from my family. I could no longer face the emotional turmoil of telling them yet again it had failed. I also wanted to prevent any fear-based energy projected on to me. I would tell them at a later date, hopefully with good news for a change. During one of the Kelly's mentorship sessions, she felt that I needed to go even deeper within to achieve my goal and I wondered how on earth I could possibly go any deeper, but amazingly I did. I contacted a dear friend of mine and former reiki student, Olwen Jennings. Olwen had just started channelling her guides professionally and she encouraged me to keep going and recommended I see someone who really helped her, Debra Kilby. Debra helped me to raise my vibration to meet that of my baby's and I was finally successful. I was pregnant! She also asked if she could include a brief summary of my story in her book, ‘Rosa's Choice‘ and I was honoured. I also had my Akashic records cleared of anything that might be blocking my success by Soul alchemist and spiritual intuitive, Marina Beech. I had a soul realignment and activation session and have since done her Akashic records courses, all transformational. Finally, I had some health kinesiology sessions with Franky Kossy, where my body communicated that it could go through with a pregnancy.
As anyone who's been on a similar journey knows, the fear doesn't stop with the positive pregnancy result. You feel both excitement and anxiety, constantly worrying that something might go wrong. I had early bleeding and some early scans and had permanent nausea and sickness which didn't just happen in the morning, nor did it go after a few weeks. I had to be on medication for that during the whole pregnancy.
What I didn't know, was that I had preeclampsia. As far as I knew, I just had some swelling in my feet and ankles. I went along to the hospital for my 36 week scan and it all went horribly wrong and I was admitted and gave birth via emergency caesarean 3 days later. Despite the preeclampsia getting worse after birth of my son, it all ended well and after a 10 day stay in hospital, we were finally allowed home to start our adventure together. Women started asking my advice and Kelly would often refer some of her clients to have a chat with me, especially if like me they were over 40. I decided that I would like to give back and help these women in which ever way I can, supporting them and holding their hands on their fertility and pregnancy journeys. I also felt guided to do a different kind of mentorship course with Kelly, this time as a Spirit baby communicator. I could never have imagined that I would be doing that, all that time ago when I was having my own fertility support and and mentorship.
I started receiving messages from spirit babies who had yet to be born and also those who had passed. I spoke to Kelly and she invited me to join her course. I have since been on three of them at her Spirit Baby Academy. Both her and Molly have been a great help to me starting my business as have Marina, energy healer and channeller Sharon Brown. I was on Sharon’s abundance course, whilst going through my last IVF cycle, so it definitely worked for me. I’ve also been on her powerful soul realignment and Galactic Blueprint courses. She also works with animal spirit guides, which I also work with. I’m also now in a wonderful spiritual business network group, who all support one another. It’s so important to find your soul tribe.
Olwen, as always has been a constant support.
I am currently writing a book about my journey, which didn’t end with the birth of my son. Keep an eye out for updates.